Studio Diary #11 November 10th-15th 2003
Monday
Just got back yesterday from my hometown of Edinburgh and the European MTV Awards
which I must confess turned out to be quite a laugh.And oh you can imagine the
glee with which I met each and every one of Icky Gorilla's outfits!!!! I especially
took to the blonde Dee Snider wig.That was a nice touch.
So hell yeah....I had myself some fun.Especially when Mr Jack White came-a-looking
for me in my dressing room and didn't recognise me.......even though there were
only two other people in the room and it was the size of a shoebox .......leaving
me somewhat perturbed! Had sweet Jackie boy lost his mind completely? Until
I suddenly remembered that the last time we saw each other I was sporting barely
an inch of shaven peroxide blonde hair.It was pretty funny saying "Oh hi
Jack" from beneath a mop of red hair.He just about jumped out of his skin.
Saw wee Kylie too and she looked so fucking tiny I wanted to scoop her up and
sit her atop a high cupboard out of harms way.
I then proceeded to intoxicate myself with vodka and jack daniels and I do believe
there might have been some champagne in there somewhere which all combined helped
the evening speed along nicely and souped up the surrealist aspect of the event.At
one point Justin Timberlake came bounding up and proclaimed himself a huge fan
and my girfriend who I've been mates with since we were 10 years old and who
has never been at one of these shows before just about fainted.What a charmer.What
on earth was poor old Britney thinking?!?!?!??!?!
Tuesday
Went to the "Knitting Tree" today and bought a whole bunch of deliciously
soft yarn and have set about knitting everyone I know and love a hand crafted
scarf.I don't know why I have made this decision but I feel like if I don't
do something normal I'm going to lose my fucking mind.I have become so tense
from jet lag and anxiety that my neck is like a knotted,hard block of wood.I
must find a way to relax and get some sleep.I really do.I'm EXHAUSTED.
I have even made an appointment to get a massage on thursday and I NEVER indulge
in shit like that.NEVER EVER ! Lord knows I am WAY too Scottish and frugal for
that but yes I'm afraid I have finally succumbed.Needs must.
Wednesday
Had a band conference call today and came off feeling excited and not wanting
to shoot myself right between the eyes.I guess we're going to make it to our
tenth anniversary afterall because if we just managed to get ourselves through
last month,we can get through anything!
We have made some fabulously excting plans and I will certainly reveal them
at a later date but right now I've got to run because 24 hours is about to start
and I have a terrible crush on "Chase".
Thursday
Had a 75 minute massage this afternoon and it was DIVINE.I'm in heaven right
now.Sitting on the couch,eating chocolate,laughing at PUNK'd and knitting up
a storm.I can feel the tension slipping off my shoulders as I speak.I am getting
very very sleepy......................very very sleepy.........
Friday
I am bored of my knitting already.Maybe I won't make a scarf for everyone I
know afterall.Maybe I'll just finish one! Set myself realistic goals.I think
that might be a more sensible idea.Or maybe I'll forget the whole damned thing
and just forget the striving for normalacy idea.Perhaps I just have to embrace
the fact that I live a crazy life,that I have a crazy career and that feeling
crazy is just part and parcel of the whole deal.Perhaps I just have to accept
the fact for once and for all. That there is absolutely nothing normal about
my life right now and go with that in peace and stop trying to pretend otherwise.
Saturday
Threw out all my "blonde" hair products today and felt completely
liberated.I am SO into being a redhead again.Being blonde was good fun while
it lasted,served it's purpose and all that but life is so much more exciting
as a redhead.It's funny.......looking back on it now,I totally hijacked myself
during the "Beautiful Garbage" album cycle.Shaved off all of my long
red hair,then dyed it a completely alien colour, just like every other traumatized
girl seems to do with herself when up against it. Hijack herself I mean.Oh boy............
are girls weird
